HOLONS
A holon is something that is both a whole and, at the same time, a part of a larger whole.
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Through the eyes of SELF, steep in the curiosity of another – the holonic depths, the wonder of the complexity of being, the struggle and seeking to connect and be different.
You and I are two parts connected by a larger field of energy. A holon - with a consciousness that is more than the sum of its parts, seeking to know itself through physical form and embodiment, through me, through you, through us.
THE BEAUTIFUL TANGLED DANCING EVOLVING MESS THAT IS US
Our parts are in constant motion.
dancing, pushing, pulling, seeking, mirroring, untangling, linking.
Experiencing the desperate struggle and ecstatic beauty of being an individual.
The rageful entanglement and
blissful sweetness of connection.
The bursting excitement and abject terror
of being seen and known.
Endlessly working and hoping
to expand and deepen in awareness,
of the complexity and simplicity of me, you.
Trying to create a place for all of us
to embody the love and joy of our Souls and the Spirit.
THE LIVING TIME MACHINE
we're building something here.
it hasn't been pretty but it will be beautiful
creating something out of nothing
fragile and tenous
but somehow it holds, and we keep on
bringing love into form
lifting the veil little by little
vacillating between the extremes
pushing up and reaching down
heaven and earth
transcending and including
the entirety of history in every moment,
in every brick, in each idea
a mission into the unknown
to what was once known
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YELLOW FLOWER
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When your world comes crumbling down
what will you focus on?
Grabbing what you can?
Doom and gloom?
Putting it back together?
Blaming someone?
The good ole days?
Whatever can numb the pain?
Or
What's emerging through the cracks?
THE BECOMING
from the quiet stillness
I emerged.
out of the nothingness
to bring the invisible into form.
brick by brick
layer upon layer
Fighting, fucking, friending
My numbers growing
My connections spreading
curious to know and feel my SELF
through you
and you
and
you
EVOLVE AND EMBRACE
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Get me out of here!
I’ve got you.
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This uncertainty,
this suffering,
this struggle.
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There is nothing
wrong with you.
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I need to get free
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You are already free.
DANCING WITH MY SELVES
LINKAGE (I'VE GOT YOU)
Our parts form a kind of neurological and energetic structure in our bodies that create the foundation for our ability to give and receive love and compassion – within ourselves, with others, with the cosmos.
The complexity, communication, and harmony between parts builds an experience of trust and safety that allows SELF energy to be felt and known in greater abundance, thus increasing the ability to open our heart and mind to deeper truth and greater care.
There is something deeply relieving when you know someone has got you, our society as a whole has got us, and ultimately, knowing that Spirit has got us.
MANAGING UNCERTAINTY
dropped into this reality
what am I supposed to do?!
stay alive!
get close to people - safety in numbers!
i have to be strong!
but don't be an asshole
gather a bunch of resources!
what or who have we left behind?!
put all our heads together
coordinate
we can do this!
i'm not sure what we're even doing!
that's the point!
THE CALL OF ONENESS
Behind the feelings,
below the thoughts and chatter,
from out of the Silence . . .
a call.
Come here. Come closer.
We are waiting for you.
You can be you.
I can be me. Together.
Can you hear the call?
Do you fear the call?
The call of Oneness.
RE-MEMBER
I see you.
All of you.
THE PROTECTORS
We’re here for you.
Since the beginning.
Keeping you safe.
Protecting the hurt.
We’re pretty tired.
But we’ll keep going.
Seeking out the light.
TRIBES OF EMERGENCE
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Let me show you the way,
through the uncertainty.
I have something to offer.
A piece of the truth,
of what's needed,
to complete our mission.
For this is not the end.
There is more to learn, see, and do.
But I need remember to not be so quick to jettison the past,
for vision comes from standing on shoulders,
and treasures from tribes past,
energizing the push of evolution and its determined arrow,
as it writes a new story through me. and you. and us.
of how we are realizing and accomplishing our mission. To become One tribe.
THE FOUNDATIONS OF FLOURISHING
STRUCTURALIZING THE DIVINE
COME BACK TO ME
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it started with an awareness.
of something missing,
and years of searching and seeking.
disappointment
after disappointment,
exhausted and hopeless.
until a turn within.
to an inner world.
where curiosity leads the way,
and the energy of SELF fuels
the meeting, untangling, befriending, unburdening of parts,
that assiduously kept hidden and safe what was most precious,
most essential,
most yearned for.
for what was lost so long ago.
our innocence.
HERE WITH YOU
I'M FINE
I'm Fine
Can’t you see that?
I need you to see that.
If you saw how anxious I felt,
how confused, angry, helpless, sad,
needy, lost, hopeless, ashamed, you would think I was weak.
You would judge me, dismiss my feelings, be angry with me, humiliate me.
You would run from me like I was a bomb.
Or in desperation,
you would try to fix me.
I would see your discomfort when you look at me.
Then I would feel like I was burdening you.
That would just hurt more.
It would confirm that no one could possibly love the real me.
It’s much better to be fine.
For both of our sakes.
So that’s what I am.
Fine.
And yes, I’m sure.
EXPRESSIONS
Can you see, hear, feel what is beneath the surface?
There are vast systems at work helping us to
survive and thrive,
to adapt and grow,
to heal and express,
to connect and protect.
So much is being expressed through a person
moment to moment.
It makes me want to sing, dance, and
sometimes shut down or drink.
MAKING SENSE OF IT ALL
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Think, think, think.
What is all this?
Who am I?
Why am I here?
What happens when I die?
Figure it out I will.
Think think think.
I’m getting closer.
I can taste it, hear it, feel it, see it.
The safety, the release, the freedom of knowing.
Nope. Not it.
Clutch on to something then.
Never enough.
It’s relentless.
These pangs of uncertainty
A FORCE OF LOVE
I will not run.
I will not submit.
I will not avoid.
I will not stay still or quiet.
I am free.
Powerful.
Strong.
And will fucking annihilate the boxes you try to put me in.
PERSUADERS OF GROWTH
This painting reflects the interactive and interdependent
forces of nature and nurture ,
of self-determination and conditioning,
of our innate drive to grow and expand,
and the environments that support or restrain that drive.
May you continue to embody greater
truth, goodness, and beauty.
SELF-portrait
SELF portrait (unblended)
I'm here.
If you would like to feel loved,
heard and understood,
cared for,
supported.
I'm here.
If are ready to let go of the struggle,
the seeking,
the pain,
the burdens you carry,
I'm here.
If you would like to know the perfection,
the innate goodness,
the love
that you already are,
I'm here.
Always.
self-portrait (blended)
We will help
keep you safe
get you loved and respected
motivate you
find you comfort
We will help
You need us
to survive this life
to manage your pain
to step up and do what no one else could do
to carry the burdens
to deal with the uncertainty
to greet the great love we find
You need us.
SYNTHESIZING COMPLEXITY
THE SURE PATH TO UNCERTAINTY
I AM THAT
Breathe
There is nothing to reject or protect
It is all you
VISION LOVE
